I was looking through my things and I found a note that my friend C wrote when he was still alive. It goes like this :
« how long now i’ve been livin’in in my head ? Too far gone to feel the life around me. Gone, lost in a nightmare of my own design ».
He was really lost, but I know he wanted to get the hell out the Order of the Sacred Cross of Samarie (and especially forget about Eileen Fisher Boyles), he could not stand it anymore… i cannot believe he committed suicide.
I should maybe organize some kind of group against the OSCS… to warn people about it.
But I was thinking, if we – in this new group – have beliefs and practices in common (I mean if we all fight the OSCS together), wouldn’t that be defined as a sect, also? I don’t know.

music of the day: the blow